Seven deadly sins

I have “gone over and gone over” the Seven Deadly Sins, trying to find any reason to delete at least one of them…but alas…I cannot.

I always thought I could justify anything! I suffer from them all! Pride, Anger, Lust, Gluttony, Envy, Sloth, & Greed. The last 11 paragraphs from page 66 of our 12×12 explain it all. It suggests the we should “walk towards perfection,” but most of us would rather hang on to our less glaring defects. Maybe it is OK to hang on to just a little lust. Justifiable anger? We all have it at some point. And although our cholesterol levels may be skyrocketing, one more donut couldn’t hurt!…lol.

These are all defects of character. Harmless? Maybe today. But somewhere down the line, they always catch up to us and bit us in our asses. “What goes around, comes around!” As a result of my own personal defects…I “get mine” all the time. Sometimes it’s pretty painful. Do I stop doing the things that I truly need to let go of? NO…lol.

The fact of the matter is: I’m just not ready to let them all go. Today, I can be honest and actually talk about it and admit that this Step is a lifetime job for me. The same book says that “Delay is dangerous. Rebellion may be fatal.” I took Step Six completely at five years sober. At some point…I have taken it back. We all do to a point. We make subconscious decisions that do it for us. Taking the Steps, helps us to make the right and healthier decisions.

It may not seem like it’s paying off today…but one day…more will be revealed and we will be better people for having followed the suggestions of the old timers.

Marilyn N.

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